"I am, what am I?"

I wrote this poem during the pandemic in 2020, during an exam: I had nothing else to do, so I painstakingly wrote this poem out with my calculator variables. I forget the exact date. I think the symbolism is fairly obvious.

i am, what am i?

i am
transformation and entrancement and out of the ashes she
transcends my earthly boundaries, thrashing in resolute opposition to me
and he is the crab inside the shell forever
trying to come out
and i am less a butterfly but a locust, devastating when i arrive as she
And I come down from the land of dreams. I am a prisoner, in his cell, that pretends to be free.
but
i hope sometime i can be me, as me, a firebird, screeching in anger, in sadness, in changes, in he and she and in all i wish i could be.

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